Wednesday, 1 November 2017

Money Wasted? Probably

So I've been giving out free chapters of my books.  Hoping people will either follow the website, be enticed enough to buy the books, a combination of both.  None of that has happened.  I finally caved and joined KDP select.  I'll probably be in in perpetually for all the benefits now.  I get zero sales on Smashwords or kobo regardless of the people who begged me to be on those sites so it makes no sense holding a gripe about amazons exclusivity clause.  Basically, I'm at the stage where nothing works. Yet here I am spending more money.

Monday, 26 June 2017

I Degayed My Insta

Yes, I know.  But hear me out.  See when I set out to be an author I had a goal in mind.  The goal was to write books that everyone could read.  These books would just happen to have not so straight leads. The problem.  In the back of my mind, I figured why can't I just write books that don't follow any preordained rules of what a gay writer should write or a black writer for that matter and still get them to follow me?

Saturday, 29 April 2017

I Don't Check Out People Anymore

Yup, it's true.  Truth be told I have no idea when this actually happened.  Sometime in the past three years or so.  I just noticed where I used to look at a guy and let my author mind run wild.  Now when I look at people I actually get depressed.  I've made it to a point where it's just not worth it anymore. Working on me just makes more sense.  It was bound to happen at one point.  Even when I cared about relationships I still didn't just up and leave my house for the random meet.  Mind you people thought I was.  I just didn't care enough to set them straight.

Friday, 14 April 2017

Supossed to be Quitting

So I am supposed to be giving up on this authoring business.  To be fair the only thing I've written has been poems.  Trying to do the April poetry month challenge.  I realise that I'm wasting away sharing my shit all the time daily and I'm already four poems behind and my stress levels are still the same. This is actually why I'm supposed to be quitting writing.  

I did however finally re-edit one of my novels.  Dana, it really needed some love and that was fun. Something artsy that didn't require sharing or the hopes people would buy it. I just did it cause I wanted to and actually enjoyed doing it.  One part of being an artist in ways that benefit my well-being, success.

Thursday, 13 October 2016

I Cant Afford Food

All of last week i was averaging about two books a day.  I gloated got all excited so on and so forth.  Thanked shitloads of people.  Was flying high on success.  Now for more of my hardcore truth, though all of this happiness and positivity was genuine it isn't the truth entirely.  Thanks to everyone who helped by sharing my first few posts I finally got some exposure leading to things like this.  And I have reviews I didn't solicit coming which is always great.  So if you haven't read it this is the article where it all began and this is the blog post that got me going.

Thursday, 6 October 2016

The Poet The Reader And The Problem

So as a poet i tend to pretty much write about everything.  And I mean everything.  Half the stuff I write about has nothing to do with me.  Okay way more than half.  Just ideas, random musings that pop into my head that get put into physical form. But apparently this isn't true.

When I the poet write a poem it's almost always nothing personal.  I have an idea, an emotion that sometimes isn't even my own.  It's been expressed to me by friends I come in contact with or random things that show up in my facebook or google feed.  I sit back and go into that place, think, and write.  When I'm writing, yes it is all about me.  When I'm done it's all about did I say it well enough for people to understand it.  My edits are always minor.  A word here and there, spacing to make the poem look the way I want.  Comma placement, little things.  I almost never do any serious rewriting.  Hell I can't even remember doing anything that serious in the near past.  All these things are to make sure that I convey certain emotions well for the reader.

Monday, 3 October 2016

No One Cares If You Share Your Own Shit

So if you have been following me recently you know I dropped my nice guy act for a new more honest approach to selling books.  Basically likes and congratulations don't do shit but sales shares or both are everything.  If you want more and that go here.  So far it has been yielding results and getting me lesser comments from the positive reinforcement crew hence dropping all negativity off my feeds.  Let's start off with why this is negative.